He who is pregnant with evil and conceives trouble gives birth to disillusionment. Psalm 7:14
An interesting and challenging truth. Sinning NEVER brings us the fulfillment, satisfaction, and contentment that we think it will. We sin because we think it will bring us those things. But it NEVER does. Therein lays the disillusionment. I have learned the hard way that this is true.
I choose to lash out in anger at someone I love because I think it will make feel better – besides, they deserve it. Afterwards I am left feeling remorseful and embarrassed. I just cut someone I claim to love. The thought that anger was a good choice was wrong. I am disillusioned with my choice.
I choose to gossip about someone who has hurt me because I think I need to justify myself and must therefore discredit them. Afterwards I feel immature and stupid. The thought that gossip was a good choice was wrong. I am disillusioned with my choice.
I choose to harbor hate in my heart toward someone who has wronged me because I think God has made me judge, jury, and executioner. Afterwards I feel distant from God and very hypocritical. I am disillusioned with my choice.
Sin – evil – trouble always begins within us as a thought. We are pregnant with it. We give birth to it when we act upon it.
- It is always our choice. We never have to sin. I could choose not to. “No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” 1 Corinthians 10:13
- Choosing to sin will always lead to disillusionment. It is always the wrong choice. It will never do for us what we think it will. Our own heart leads us astray. “The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?” Jeremiah 17:9
Father, help me to always think true thoughts and know that ungodly behavior is always the wrong choice. Amen.