I finally submitted a heavy burden I was dealing with at my job to God, and the Lord with His unfailing love gave me his grace, showed me the way and lifted the burden from within me bringing me inner peace I haven’t felt for some time now.
For the past 3 months or so, my boss and I have had some major disagreements on how we needed to implement changes within our manufacturing facility. He has been with our company since April of this year and I have been there for 5 years. Our General Manager decided we needed to make some much needed changes going into 2011, and I was asked to be the “official” team leader of this working with a consultant. After a lot of planning in the first quarter of the year, my new boss then joined us and we were ready to start implementing. In his second week with us, my new boss and I had different philosophies of how some of these changes were going to take place. And so begins the growth of my burden.
I either team lead or was a part of a lot of the activities implementing the planned changes through the spring and summer going into the fall. Along the way there was a lot of conflicts with my new boss that had me shaking my head and rolling my eyes. And so my burden continues to grow.
Going into the fall more changes were being implemented, but we were hitting road blocks. A lot disagreement between my boss and I occurred. And it got to the point where I could barely look at my boss in the eye much less talk to him. This is when I started to pray to God about what to do. I always filled my wife in on what was going on. I started to discuss it with some close acquaintances and within our Growth Group. But I never fully placed this burden on the altar before the Lord. I kept some of this burden to try and handle myself. This burden grew to point where my relationship with my wife and kids was being affected.
Fast forward to Dec 12, 2011, my boss had said some things that made me say to myself “I can’t believe you just said that.” And thoughts of I need a new job felt like the only answer. My job satisfaction bottomed out, I took that home, took that out on my wife and kids, and our relationship took a really bad turn.
That night before going to bed, I got down on my hands and knees and prayed out loud to God: “Lord, how do I deal with these conflicts with my boss? Do I continue to fight him? Should I look for a new job? Or should I feel blessed just to have a job?” At that point, the Spirit of God consumed me and the Lord said to me “Do what is pleasing in the eyes of God.” This lead to a domino effect of blissful thoughts and emotions. Fighting him leads to stress and anger, which are not pleasing in the eyes of God. Taking my frustrations out on my family is not pleasing in the eyes of God. Patience, respecting my bosses requests, assurance that I have a job in my field is a blessing, working hard and doing my job to the best of my God given ability, being the provider for my family, being a loving husband and father are all pleasing in the eyes of the Lord. God knew my heart and mind were ready for His guidance at that time, while He patiently waited for my in the past to be ready. I sweated a lot of small stuff and He showed me not to worry about them anymore. From then on, I’ve had a new blissful outlook on my job.
So why did I hold on for so long to this burden? Why did I let this consume me and control me for so long? I don’t know and I’m sure I’ll do it again. But Psalm 4:1-“Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer.” and Philippians 4:6-7-“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” These are very comforting words of Scripture to know that He will listen, He will answer, He will guide, and He will give grace.
- Anonymous guest blogger
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